When i was fourteen i swore i was going to kill myself at fifteen but i didn’t do it, i’m still here.
I am turning 18 tomorrow and suicide it’s in my head again. It never leaves me but i could do it, i have pills.
I’m emotional at the moment and mad at myself for expecting more than i should.
I just don’t feel okay. I work out everyday but i put on weight, i eat once a day, i’m fatter than ever.
I just want to sleep and not worry about anything….why doesn’t antidepressants work like the should?
one of the things i don’t like about life is that everything has to end, i mean i’m ok with that, but it also means that friendship ends, food ends, water ends, lives end (lives of the people you love.) i love beginnings but i rarely think about the endings and when they happen they completely destroy me.
It’s like we start something and we are so excited about it that we don’t give ourselves time to think about how painful its going to be when this thing ends.
it’s being suicidal normal? i feel it is but i doesn’t seem like it
to me it just seems like the only way out, and sometimes i get this very strong urges to just die and sometimes they are not as bad but i always think about it, i don’t know, sometimes i’m scared i might go thru with it.
it’s like half of me is divided between killing myself and being afraid of the other half…
Selfies from the weekend.
Anybody knows where i could get a long sleeve velvet dress?
I would prefer it to be blue, but green would be okay too. I need to be a skater type of dress. So if anybody knows, please tell me!.
Brave as a noun. (Looks better in real life).